and other disassociated ramblings by the Smiling Pig
now to sleep...perhaps to dream...
to dream the dreams only a dream weaver can dream.
to catch sight of mystic light...beyond the universe's realm...
where dragons fly and wizards vie for a place in requiem.
where no man walks and no voice is heard and time stands vigil over all...
in this place so far away only dreams come to call...
sweet dreams
the most intimate thing there is in a relationship is the act of understanding...not physical giving of one's self...getting to know them and discovering the person they are, what they are feeling and being able understand and read even the most subtle expression is the act of being intimate....
If you love, you learn, if you learn, you accept, if you accept, you understand, if you understand, you love..
She paints the night with silence now...
Echoes are all I hear...
And to this loneliness I will bow...
And face this I fear...
This demon that comes upon me...
I will fear no more...
But stand and face as should be...
And return to her as before...
No more of my loss to lament...
A resolves sets in my heart...
I will not rest or be content...
Until I hew this demon apart...
Let my actions speak for me now...
I lay the quill aside...
When at her feet I will bow...
And with her abide...
Autumn mist comes rolling in…
And settles all around…
Quiet breeze is whispering…
In you is where I’m found…
Like this mist that surrounds…
You inundate my being…
My feet planted upon the ground…
Though my heart knows no ceiling…
You lift me up to heights unknown…
I am floating on the breeze…
Like bird aloft I’ve flown…
To gently settle on bended knee…
And on my knee before you…
I take your hand in mine…
A clouded eye like morning dew…
Evermore to be thine…
I pledge my love and my heart…
Forever to be true…
This I have known from the start…
It has always been you…
So take my hand and walk with me…
Let autumn’s mist surround…
As we journey to what will be…
To live this love we’ve found…
Leaves fall gently down…
Float calmly upon water’s surface…
Tranquility is all around…
My soul is freed from its encumbrance…
Gently my heart beats…
I have surrendered to this peace…
To the silence that I greet…
Where all my fears seem to cease…
I immerse myself in this place…
Cleansing my soul and mind…
Knowing now the life I face…
Without you I would never find…
My thoughts have centered on you…
My life, my reason for tomorrow…
I feel as if I have been born anew…
And I have left behind all the sorrow…
This place you have taken me…
The quietness that calms the storm…
With you I will always be…
For in your love I was born
autumn leave come floating down....
and settle gently upon the ground....
scattered by the wind they fly...
far up into the autumn sky...
feeling the wind on her face...
her expression shows her grace...
as she feels the autumn wind...
a song in her heart she sends...
her smile reflects her beauty within...
voice so sweet I stop to listen...
and as I turn this smile I see...
she stands in front of me...
and as the wind sings her song...
enlightens my heart as I go along...
this girl of autumn I saw today...
and like the leaves she went away...
every time I hear the wind...
to that thought I will bend...
there will come another day...
when she will come and stay...
the hardest thing I ever said....
was to say goodbye....
to see where this path has led...
to watch love whither and die...
to feel the emotions drain...
like sands in an hourglass...
to know tomorrow brings pain...
for thinking this would last....
goodbye is the final word...
to say we are at an end....
to say I love you would be absurd..
I know your heart won't bend...
what can I do to make you see...
to make you understand....
I belong to you and you to me....
to walk hand in hand....
goodbye, it comes so hard...
to admit that it is over....
we have dealt the final card....
and I was given the joker.....
this is only chat, that's all it is...
nothing you can call real...
just words emotionless...
nothing your heart can feel...
it fills the time between...
from waking till we sleep...
where our feelings can't be seen...
and fears are buried deep...
its only an e- thing is what you see..
just something on a screen...
nothing you can hold nothing that will be..
nothing but words to be seen....
but you failed to consider me....
wo ai ni.....
