Out of Left Field

There is a saying I grew up with when someone throws something at you that you weren't quite expecting. "Out of left field." There is one I talk to on here who is quite gifted when throwing something at me out of left field. I came across a video I thought was quite humorous, albeit a little graphic, but the jist of the video was like an old "Candid Camera" clip and I thought they would see the humor in it too, so I sent the link. To my chagrin they asked, "Do you like porn?" and like any noble gentleman I answered as honestly as my modesty would let me, "When I as younger I liked it very much." I continued saying that after a while it all gets to being about the same and I did not delve into it that much now. Then another fast one came out of left field, "I Like it." It took the better part of five minutes to get my lower jaw reacquainted with my upper teeth. Not that they haven't in the past thrown a few "zingers" in my direction and usually with the same dumbfounded reactions from me. If fingers could stutter, mine would have been.

I guess one thing I appreciate the most about this person and what endears them to me is the openness in which we can talk. No topic barred and there are no retributions for what has been said. Even those times we part and I feel a bit chaise for being called out on something. I keep forgetting that this person reads me like a book for the most part and there are times they know what I am going to say before I say it to them. But we can talk and not feel any guilt for anything that is said. One of the few I have met that when talking about sex does not lead to sex. Politics do not lead to arguments. Lifestyles does not lead to prejudiced thoughts. I do not think I have met anyone like them and I have a feeling people like them are few and far between. So it is that when one is fortunate enough to meet one such as them, you do not want to lose them from your life. That is how I feel.

I have been "accused" by some of being in love with this person. Yes, in a sense I am, but not in the sense you might think. It is something one would feel between the love they would feel for a daughter and the love they would feel for a woman. There have been some that are jealous of this and it has caused friendships to crumble and fall apart. They say I put this person before too many things and maybe I do, but they do not understand why I do and I do not bother to explain it to them. I have been told I had a choice to make, to pick them or this one I am writing about. I am still talking to the one I am writing about and if given the option to choose again in the future, I would still want to keep what we have with this person.

I have never explained why and maybe I do not really know why I feel the way I do about them, I have never questioned it, I just accept it and I am very happy they are in my life. I can say one thing, when all others have turned away, walked away and left me standing in the cold, this one has always been there with a warm word. They do not judge me nor do they question me, they do however impart a bit of themselves. For one to be so young in their life, within them they hold the wisdom of many years.

So again, even though I have said it many times before, I want to thank this person for always being there when needed, for lifting me up, putting a smile on my face and giving me the chance to knock the dust from my life and keep seeing tomorrow. I will forever in my life be indebted to them for what of themselves they have given me.

My wonderful and beautiful friend, this one is for you, knock it out of left field.

Later...