No Tomorrow

A mother cries her child is gone...
This flower from a seed was born...
In anguished tear she sits alone...
From her arms this babe was torn...

Was this morning she kissed goodbye...
Not knowing it would be her last...
And now she cries a lonely sigh...
Her child's life has past...

No more laughter will she hear...
Nor feet upon the floor...
No longer will she quieten the fear...
Then silently close the door...

The table is set with one less place...
The chair will be empty now...
She longs to see that smiling face...
That soothed her worried brow...

She cries aloud her soul is torn...
This child of hers lies still...
This babe she cradled when first born...
No longer her life will fill...

She reaches out in hopes to grasp...
And pull them from their sleep...
To break the lock and open hasp...
And free them from death's keep...

This flower she nurtured from a seed...
No longer will it bloom...
No more will her care it need...
Her memory will be entombed...

In memory her child will live...
The smile will never fade...
And in her heart she will give...
A place for her child she made...

And with every tear that falls...
With each sigh she does breathe...
It is her soul that calls...
For her child her pain to ease...

We have so much to be thankful for and when compared to the great loss that mothers and fathers suffered on 12 May, 2008 at 2:23pm our problems seem very petty. The loss of so many children who had so much ahead of them, so much to learn and to give in return who's lives have been stilled now will never be able to see what tomorrow will offer them, nor will we benefit from their ideas. I feel for all those who have suffered this tragic and devastating event, but it is the children that I feel for the most. They were our future, our tomorrows, our hopes for a better and more understanding world. China has suffered much with the loss of these children and even though they have been laid to rest they should not be forgotten as a victim, yet remembered as a lost soul.

We were all born of one and we are all brothers and sisters and in as much as the mothers and fathers have suffered, we too should feel that grief of loss for a loved one. If you do nothing else, please remember the children who will no longer be heard.

Enough Said....

You sit and accuse me, judge me and act as if you are the only one who has that right. What gives you the right to be the only one to do so? Say what you will, keep saying it, you are doing nothing more than proving my point. As I said, I have no problem with it what so ever. Your childish inane assault on me is doing nothing but hurting you and starting to bore me. I do not have to justify my reasons any longer to you, I have said my piece and if you cannot live with that then it is now your problem. If you can't take criticism, then you should not try and sell your work.

As I said, when you did not do as we talked about, I did not go around and say things about you or the piece you painted to try and justify my reasons, but you seem to take it a bit personal just because you took it upon yourself to do something you were not asked to, you and I talked about exactly what it was I was looking for and wanted. I am sure you feel that you fulfilled exactly what was requested and that is your right to think so and it is your opinion and it is only that, your opinion. Two sides to every coin. So either get over it and get on with your life or wallow in your self pity and seek your sympathy in the chatrooms. I am tired of this now and I am not going to bother with it any longer. Take your own advice and be an adult and stop acting like some spoiled little child who got their feelings hurt.

Okay Pumpkin...

I see you just think you're right in this. Let's talk about the painting. Let's talk about what you said you would do and didn't. I have not said anything about you or the painting but you seem to want to keep dragging it out. You did not even come close to what I asked for. I am not saying what you painted was bad, but it isn't no where near what we talked about. Size, content, media, nothing that I asked for, you did what you wanted to do, not what was asked of you and now you think you have been done wrong? Get a clue, because if you take this approach you will always be selling your paintings on some back street hoping that a tourist takes pity on you.

What you have done with you postings in my chatbox is show that you are nothing more than a vindictive spoiled little child that is upset because it did not go your way. Keep posting, it does not make me any difference because sooner or later you will do the same thing to someone else and they will feel the same about how you take it upon yourself to do as you wish and not be able to deliver the product they requested. If you have nothing better to do than to occupy your time with your childish efforts in belittling me, then it seems that you really have nothing else better to do in life. You should focus those energies on your artwork, maybe then you would make some progress and get somewhere. If it makes you feel better, then by all means keep up your asinine attack on me, you are doing nothing but dragging yourself down and showing everyone how little and narrow you actually are. Say what you will about me to whomever you like, but as I have stated, what goes around comes around and sooner or later you too will pay for your imbecilic actions. Your words are nothing but a direct reflection on you, think about that, and how you really are and you have shown nothing but to be vindictive, facetious, spoiled and vengeful. You want to dwell on how you have been treated and think about what you did was nothing within the scope of what was asked of you. Did you not get a picture of what was requested of you? Were you not asked to paint only a specific part of what was sent to you? Were you not asked that it be painted in a very specific way? Were you not asked that it be of a specific size and what the main focus was to be? How many of those points were met? None Pumpkin, none of them were even close and you say I am the one who is in the wrong on this. You took it upon yourself to do what you wanted to do and expected me to accept it. I guess if you were contracted to paint a house green and you decided to paint it pink you would be expected to be paid for your work too because you felt in your mind you were right.

And please, follow through on your threats to me, don't just say it, do it and get it over with. Keep up your little vendetta against me if it makes you feel better. Post this link in the room, do what you wish because sooner or later it will come back on your shoulders. I do not feel bad Pumpkin, not one bit for not accepting your painting and if you are trying to make me feel guilty let me clue you in on something, you aren't because just as you feel about the way things went, I feel the same, you didn't deliver what was asked of you, you did not even come close. And if you think I worry about what people think in a chatroom, again you need to think, because if you put anything into it then you are just as clueless as to what is going on around you as they are. And if you think I do not see another's personal feelings are playing into this you are wrong and you are being used by them. Sooner or later you will see that you were used by them to vent their feelings and when they are finished using you, you will be of no more use to them and they will just walk away and leave you to answer for what you have said and done. Quiet honestly I think you have nothing better to do with your life and you enjoy your pathetic attempt in trying to get to me.

As for me not going into the room, you have nothing to do with it and I am not hiding, if I were, you would not have access to my blog to leave your vicious little remarks. So my reasons are mine and I do not owe you an explanation. You made your comment that I feel better about it because of what I wrote, again Pumpkin you need to understand, I never felt bad about it to begin with because you did not do what was expected, what was asked of you to do. So when you post what you said you would and let everyone see, please do not pick and choose what you want them to see to justify your actions, post everything that was talked about and then post the pictures that were requested that you do as well as what was requested of you, don't just use it to your benefit, use it to vindicate your actions or your lack of reason for your actions. Remember I have them too and I will not hesitate to post them in full. And please do not forget to post a picture of what you have painted along side the picture that was sent to you as well as that one specific part that was asked that you do. If you can't then let the picture here remind you of what was asked of you.

Remember one thing Pumpkin, we all answer to someone and it is not you that I answer to. If you had done what you said you would do and as it was asked of you, then we would not be having this conversation, so don't make this look like I am the one entirely in the wrong here.

Passing Thoughts...

As always it seems that I find myself deepest in thought when I am worried about something and I try to divert that worry by thinking of something else. With the earthquake in China and having someone there I care about, it is natural for me to suppress those worries with thoughts. Seems this time my thoughts took me to karma and it's rewards and repercussions. From there it went down several other paths, but karma seemed to take center stage. I am a very big believer in karma and even though you find people in all walks of life talking about good and bad deeds in some way or another it is mentioned in all walks of life and religions. Maybe under another name or ideology, but none the less it is there.

In Christianity it is stated in verse; "You reap what you sow tenfold." Even though it is stated very simple, it is complex because a lot of people do not understand what its true meaning is. They just see it as it is stated. That no matter what they do in life, good or bad they will reap ten times what they gave. That in some form it will return to them. There is another verse in the Bible that traverses the beliefs in karma; "Judge not lest you be judged, let you without sin cast the first stone." These two verses in the Bible have been taught and spoken in many different ways throughout history and to me it defines that double edged sword that karma wields.

What goes around comes around, sooner or later the rooster comes home to roost, both mean the same thing. That our actions placed on another will come back to us. It may not be in the same way that it was doled out, but rest assured it will come. And I believe we need to think about this a little deeper and have a little better understanding of it, because from what I see on here, people seem to use it as a weapon or threat instead of what it really is. They do not understand they do not dictate karma or its rewards and repercussions. Quite the contrary, taking that approach is nothing more than being vindictive or trying to martyr yourself. I am not saying you should not fight when you feel you have been wronged or when you know you are right, but to try and bring something into it you really have no control over yourself and use it as a threat or a means to belittle someone makes you no better than the person who you feel caused you some sort of personal pain. Karma has its own set of rules as to when, where and why and we do not control that in any way. We might think we can when by our actions we precipitate something thinking it is our just right to seek vengeance against another or to try and adjudicate feelings we have towards another.

Karma is precedence based on our actions of how we live our lives. I am not perfect, I have never claimed to be nor will I. I am not going to say that I have never lied, that would be a lie in itself. We all lie, it is our nature to in some way or another. It is a part of our instinct, our will to survive. I am sure you just laughed at the last statement and when you do, remember the check is in the mail or you have just opened a new account and the funds have not been transferred yet, I am sorry dear, but I have to work late tonight, the meeting lasted longer than I expected it would, maybe we can do that next year. Yes we all lie, whether it is to ourselves, our friends, loved ones, associates or the bill collector, we all lie. I may confront someone about something they have said and ask them about it, but I will not call them a liar or say that they have lied, because at the time it was said, to them they may not have felt it was a lie. It could have been based on many things when it was said, but things change and what once may have been the truth to them is no longer true, but that does not make it a lie. When I have found out it was a lie or vicious rumor that was being spread I did not chase it down nor did I defend myself because of another's words against me. I have many reasons for this and none of them have to do with shame. A lot have told me that if I didn't say something then soon everyone would believe the lie that was being spread. I have no problem with that either, I was not set on earth to chase down rumors and vindictive attitudes against me. I wasn't placed her to justify the wrongs against me, I was placed here to live my life as fruitful and productive as I can in the little time allotted.

People love to say things, especially when they have an audience and they can be believed. A lot of people enjoy being vindictive and feel they are justified in their actions or words. But what their audience does not realize is that they are only listening to one side of the story. People who listen to such malicious gossip should think before they open their ears and understand that they are only hearing one side and until they could make a judgment there is another side yet unheard. They need to consider the source and the context in which it was presented. Whether it is just from being having their feelings hurt or if they were being maliciously attacked or if it was nothing more than a misunderstanding.

I mentioned karma being a double edged sword earlier and it is. When you have been wronged is it up to you personally to mete out the punishment? When by actions you slander and verbally attack another is that karma acting or is it nothing more than your feelings surfacing? And what is it that defines an action against another? On here I am just going to tie it down to two things, thoughts and words. Both can be a blessing and a poison. If you truly believe in karma and that it will be karma in the end that will finally right a wrong to justify a means to an end, then once something happens to you, your role is finished and that curtain should be closed and let karma deal its hand. But to attack another with vicious words says that you do not really put that much faith into what you say you believe in. Then you have done no better than the other and you too are subject to those same considerations of the other when karma is played out in your life. To set your thoughts to words and to make them public in a demeaning nature, to purposely seek your vengeance places you on the same plain as your perpetrator. Then at that point you are no better than them. To truly believe in karma, you leave it to karma.

A lot who espouse their belief in karma I have seen on here act as if they have never done any wrong or have never wronged another. That they have never by their actions said or done anything against someone else. That they are the picture of innocence and treat others as they want to be treated, when in fact we all treat people the way we have been treated or are treated by them at that time.

I can say one thing without worry, I never attack another behind their backs. I keep my thoughts to myself and if I feel it needs to be addressed, then I do it with that person on a one on one basis, not in a public forum. I do not go into a room and belittle another just because I feel I need to be vindicated or have my ego stroked or justify my actions, that is between me and the other. I do not slander or defame another if they are not present, nor will I do it in a public forum when they are. I may talk about their actions and how I personally see them, but I do not go in to tear them down. As I said, I do believe in karma and that it will come back. I have never ran nor have I hid and when asked I have taken responsibility for my actions and words.

Fulfilled...

On tangled path I have walked...
Thorn and brier ensnare...
To seek the one who gently talked...
One who wanted to share...

To speak of what tomorrow will bring...
And the joys yet to come...
To listen to the morning birds sing...
As they greet the sun...

To see the lotus petals unfold...
Upon water so calm and still...
Under sun as bright as burnished gold...
The promise of beauty fulfilled...

Standing there she softly sings...
Her voice floating on the breeze...
A melody that gently rings...
To rest among the leaves...

To kiss the lips that speak to me...
As as sweet as the morning dew...
That in her eyes I might see...
A world seen by few...

She turns to me and we embrace...
Her scent it fills my senses...
And I look upon her lovely face...
It frees my heart from its fences...

For in her love I have found...
A place she made for me...
She gives a love without bounds...
And gives her heart so willingly...

We walk this path together now...
No thorn or brier to snare...
For in my heart I knew some how...
Our lives we would share...

Live and Learn...

We live and learn.

After seeing a few comments posted in my chatbox and talking to several people on here I feel it is time I address a few matters and clear the air so to speak. Normally I would not even bother because most of it boils down to “he said she said” and becomes more of a pain in the ass than a reason to justify the issue. The word assumption or assume bears heavily on this plus the fact that maybe the term consignment needs to be addressed because a lot of things get misconstrued as to what is actually meant.

I won’t mention names or ID’s because all concerned once reading this will know who and what I am talking about.

First I would like to define or attempt to define what it means when you offer your services on a consignment basis and what is expected of you. When you sell your goods or services to someone and they have accepted your services to a specific type or amount of work, it is by their instructions or wishes you fulfill that request, not by what you think they would want or what you feel you want.

If a prospective client tells you for example they would like a painting that measures 24 inches tall x 60 or 72 inches long and has even given specific details as to what they wanted the outcome to look like down to medium and application of the medium, those are the instruction that you follow, you do not decide or take it upon yourself to alter those instructions and create something you think they would like or that you feel comfortable in doing. As a consignee you are obligated to that and the consignor is not obligated at any point to honor anything if that has been breached. In other words you do not come up with something that is of wall portrait size and out of the scope of medium, subject or application of medium and expect the consignor to pay for it.

As a consignee, you do not dictate when the work is to start, how it is to proceed or assume at any point that until agreed upon that the consignor is obligated to accept something that is not to what the instructions or wishes were. If you take it upon yourself as the consignee to start a project without the consignor requesting that you start it, the responsibility falls on you, not the consignor. You have a professional and moral obligation to your client in that respect. At no point should you assume that what you have done on your own volition to do is the client or consignor to be held responsible. And until the consignor is ready you do not make purchases, if you do then that too is your responsibility, you do not assume at any time that the client or consignor is responsible, that is just simple business practice.

Addressing your comments on my chatbox at this time attests to the professionalism lacking as a business professional or the claim that you are one. Your comments were slanderous and out of context and by placing those in such a public forum you have put yourself in a precarious and liable position. Personal comments such as you made should have been just that, personal and addressed that way. All you do in doing so is give that person that you directed those comments to is reason for legal recourse for defamation and slander. And personally, I would hope that they would not take it to that level if I were you.

As I have previously stated, normally I would not concern myself with such matters as this, but I feel that you assumed too much and you thought you knew what would be acceptable when not following the prospective client’s wishes. But you took things upon yourself to do that you shouldn’t have and now you expect to be compensated for it.

What is Important?

I asked her once what was important to her, and without any hesitation she said, "Family and friends, in that order." She didn't mention her career, financial stability or herself. It was her family and friends that were the most important to her. This world, her world that she has created with just that, family and friends, that she has nurtured and loved meant more to her than anything she could think of. World peace? No, she didn't need it, she has peace in her world and that is what is important to her. She did not even mention herself as being important.

How many of us can say that? I have thought about it a lot in the past two years since I asked her that. I honestly believe I would not have answered it the same. I used to think before I met her that I should be the most important to me. That in order for me to make anyone else happy, I had to be happy first and that I should always consider myself first. After thinking about it now, I realize that was nothing more than a conceited self centered and selfish ideology.

She, by considering others first had found her happiness. How such a simplistic idea can have such an impact on one's life and outlook amazes me. She just doesn't talk the talk, she walks the walk, I have seen it many times displayed. I have not only witnessed it I am testament to it. The patience and understanding she has shown me defines her. I am not saying she just smiles and glosses it over, no, quite the opposite, there are lessons to be learned and she is quick to teach them. She does not do it to be vindictive, she does it out of love and the fact that it is important that the mistakes are not habitually repeated to the point it becomes abuse.

She shows genuine compassion when it comes to friends and family and it is this compassion she has for that unity that gives her that patience and understanding. That willingness to work with it and try and right the wrong. To teach those lessons that will create a stronger and more trusting relationship.

My view might be biased, but that is understandable, I am the student that has an undefinable admiration for the teacher.